Hii ..It has been raining whole day. I am not going to tell you about the rain. I know you know about it very well. There is an important thing which I want to share with you. The pain of waiting for somebody, who never comes. I have been spending my whole life remembering someone who never comes to see me or talk with me. My present, past and future life is past. Personality development writers may hit me if they read this story.
Please wait a minute, bed room windows are making noise. Let me check once. Hey I can see my best friend smiling at me with a cute green face. I know this tree loves me a lot than anybody in this world. You know when I was a kid, R&B (Road and Building) authorities wanted to cut this tree for extending the road. I cried a lot and made my parents fight with the authorities and made them keep it like that.
Somebody is knocking the door!! Thank god, somebody came to see me, I walked little fast opened the door, nobody is there!! I know nobody won't be there, but I always get these illusions as somebody always craves to talk to me!!!
I think this waiting for someone started, when I was 4, waiting for my grand father to come to my school and take me to his home. I was not able to bear that school prison for such a long time from 8 to 4. He used to drop me at 8, and come at 12 to take me home. So I will be waiting for him from 8:01 till 12PM. Whenever I saw somebody, I thought that, its him and I was always disappointed.
At the age of 6, I moved to my parent's home from grand parent's home. As my parents were very strict, I used to feel like being in prison. I was always looking at the main road for my grand father, who comes once in a month. I used to spend hours looking at the road, hoping he will come at any time.
In my school I became close to 'Ram". He was my best buddy. We used to play, sing, dance and enjoy very much. We used to run near railway track where it is surrounded with the coconut trees. We used to wave hands to the people in the train and we used to get good replies from them. We were not thinking about the future or the past, living in present and enjoying every moment of life. It was so good and I used to think, I should be always 7 years kid. One day I heard that ram is moving to another transfer due to his dad's transfer. I cried for so many days. While he was leaving I given him letters with my address and got the promise, he has to post me once in a week. He left. I used to bug post man every day for Ram's letter. But I never got any positive reply from him. I waited for so many months; I never got any letter from him.
Time is moving quickly. Now I am in Engineering first year. After few days of joining, my heart stopped working!!! It's neither because of exam results nor the head of the department come directly to my class and calling my name, it's because of her!!!
Let me take more time in explaining this phase of my life!!!
I never felt that much pain my heart after seeing her first time. I realized I didn't close my eyes along with mouth for long time!! I have been staring at her, till she sits in front of my bench. I don't know whether she observed me.
I am sitting in the last row of boy's bench and there is tough competition for that place, after she joined in our class. So many boys want to see her by sitting near to her in that bench. So I used to come very early to that class room and used to occupy last place in that last bench. Everyday I start my research on her, When ever she enters into the class. I used to cover my face with my two hands and putting my head exactly opposite to sir, but keeping my eyes on her. Her eyes are so big. They used meet my yes many times and she used to feel shy and kept her head down. I don't know whether she likes me or not, and I don't have desire of making her to love me. I just want to observe her.
Whenever she was not feeling well, I used to feel very bad and used to roam around her room. I came to know her home long back after following her one fine Friday afternoon.
Today is her birth day! She is wearing pink color dress, and looking like a gorgeous princess. Now I am observing more than normally!! But she didn't look at me single time!! Everybody is wishing her, I am not. I am very shy and less-confident, I didn't dare to wish her!!
After the class, I am walking slowly, scolding myself for not wishing her! Then I heard a sweetest voice, saying "excuse me!!".
I turned my head and didn't believe it. It's her calling me!!
I replied "hi!!!"
She asked me "why didn't you wish me today??"
I said "Sorry"
She said " I am not here to listen your sorry"
I said with a shy voice "I am sorry for not wishing you till now! Many happy returns of the day"!!
She asked me with a shy face " that's all?"
Then I don't know what happened. I am not sure what I am doing!!After five minutes she is removing my saliva with her hand kerchief, with a shy red face!! Oh my god, I kissed her cheeks for five minutes!! Alas! She didn't hit me with her sandle! Yes you are correct!! She likes me!!
She left now!! I came to my hostel, still not believing what had happened in the evening!! I am remembering her cute red face!! I am very desperate to see her!! Now it is 12AM. Now I am knocking her door!!
She is shocked completely!!
She asked me "why did u come at this time"??
I said " I want to see you, I cant forget what happened in the evening".
She felt shy and asked me to come inside!!
Then I had given her small gift by kissing on her head!! I read somewhere, girls feel that we are affectionate towards them when we kiss their head area!!.
I said "I love you".
She replied "she knew it and she also likes me a lot!!"
As she is staying in her uncle's home as a paying guest, nobody was disturbing her after 11PM up to morning 5AM.
I used to go to her room after 12Am every night!! And return before 4AM. We used to talk so many things, about her childhood days, about her school days. She used to lie on my chest and like to see moon through window. Initially we were talking normally, later started talking with our lips. We used to play a game, to kiss continuously with our lips and who ever removes their lips, they lost the game!!! I used to loose the game always!!!
After our engineering, she called me suddenly sad that her parents came to know our affair and asked me to come to her city's railway station after two days and we can elope somewhere. I went to that railway station on her mentioned date and waiting for her, she didn't come at the specified time!! Whenever somebody comes, I think she is only coming!! But she didn't come that day!!I waited next day also like a mad person!! She didn't come till now. As I don't know her home's address, I came back to my college, got her address by bribing pune!
I went to her and realized that they already left that city!!I fallen on the ground and I cried, cried!!!! so many days!!!whenever my cell phone rings, I think she only call me, and get disappointed , when some others call me!!I waited for her call for one year!!I didn't get her call!!
I don't know till now, where is she and what happened to her!! Probably she might be remembering me and I am not sure about it!!!!
I know I can't do anything except waiting for someone who never comes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
